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Top 5… books that drained my emotions

Today’s Top 5 Tuesday is ‘books that drained my emotions’. Top 5 Tuesday is hosted by the super lovely Shanah over at the Bionic Bookworm. You can visit her here, and join in for Top 5 Tuesday by checking out all the amazing topics we have coming up!

98% of the time I am happy to be in Australia. However, because I am so far in front of everyone in terms of time zones, it makes it so hard to write these posts sometimes because I’m usually one of the first to post! I mean, I want to steal some of your inspiration occasionally… books that drained my emotions… hmmm… ok. For lack of not knowing what else to put, I’m providing a list of books that gave me ALL. OF. THE. FEELS. Like, so many feels that I was just mush at the end of the books.


I really can’t go past Gemina by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff for number one. Because I had heard very mean things about cliffhangers (and believed them because I had read Jay’s books before), I did not pick up Illuminae until I had Obsidio in my hands. However, books one and three had nothing, and I mean NOTHING on the absolute emotional wreck that Gemina left me in. I have always considered myself a book lover, and I would never do anything intentional to hurt a book (except when I was young and dog-eared pages). That all went out the window when I read this book though, as I literally threw it not once, but twice, while reading it. If you’ve read it, you probably know the two scenes I’m talking about – and let me tell you, I was not prepared for the feels this book not only gave me, but then ripped from me. TWICE. I’ve never cursed authors like I did Amie and Jay while reading this. I LOVED IT.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

You know, I try very hard to not list Harry Potter books in these prompts, but Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix is my favourite book of the series. I know this is a very unpopular opinion, as most people see this one as the saddest, but that’s probably why I like it the most. Sirius dies! And, I don’t mean that in a “yay! Sirius is dead!” way at all. Sirius’ death was a turning point for me. He was one of the first fictional characters who I truly mourned. I was gutted. I think I cried for about 3 days. For Harry to be given so much hope – Sirius had been cleared of charges, everyone realised Harry had been telling the truth about Voldemort returning, Harry was going to get to live in a real home, cared for by someone who truly loved him – all wiped out with a simple step through a curtain. The unjustness of it all! And it’s not my favourite because Harry was so destroyed either. I just liked.

Empire of Storms

Another unpopular opinion – Empire of Storms is my favourite book in the Throne of Glass series. Yes, I have finished them all. Kingdom of Ash was amazing, don’t get me wrong, I really liked the ending to it. But this one? It makes me cry just thinking about it. It’s hard to explain without giving away the plot (it’s far less likely you guys don’t know what happened in HPatOotP). But, all this stuff was set up and no one knew, and then the thing at the end happened, and it was just like it was all done for nothing – none of it mattered! And then things started to fall apart and it was JUST. SO. SAD. So many emotions! I had so many emotions.

SURPRISE! That’s right, my friends. It’s not a real Top 5 Tuesday if I haven’t listed The Nevernight Chronicle by Jay Kristoff. If you’ve read these books, then you probably understand where I’m coming from. And to be perfectly honest, some of my ‘WTF’ moments in these books come from the absolutely brutal cliffhanger endings. However, the rest of them come from the total soul-destroying experience that reading these books can leave you in. Also, sorry for doubling up authors!! Kristoff is just really good at making me cry…


OK, so you may have noticed my lack of contemporary fiction thus far. It’s because I’m having a hard time picking just one. You see, the contemporary novels that I tend to read are the ones that intentionally make you cry, They give you delightful little feelings, and then when you’re feeling full of sunshine, they distract you with a rainbow, shove a dagger in between your ribs, and then rip your soul out of your chest cavity leaving you feeling rather dead inside. Then they often take your poor soul, smash it onto the ground and stomp it into the gutter with dead leaves and drain water. Occasionally they give it back to you, and then you (stupidly) buy another book by the same author only to repeat this process.

If, like me, you enjoy this happening to you (I’m kind of a reading-sadist…?), then I’m going to give you a top 5 contemporary books to read. You’re welcome.

It feels weird ending this post on my usual ‘Happy reading’ line, as these are books that absolutely destroyed me… so, bye! (Thanks Shanah – I’m off to cry again now you’ve reminded me of all these things)


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